Below, you will find a copy of the journal I kept during my transition into, and my first year of, a 100% raw, vegan diet. Some of it is quite personal, but I still wanted to share it with all of you. We may never meet in person, but I feel we are all connected in this world.I want to share my story with you, in hopes that you may learn something about yourself by reading about my journey into the raw lifestyle. Perhaps you'll be inspired (that's my wish), or learn to not make similar mistakes.

The journal begins in July of 2006 and continues into October 2007. If you are interested in reading something from the beginning, please use the archive feature at the right side of this page. If a month has more than one page worth of entries, there will be a "previous entries" link at the bottom of the page to view the rest of the entries for that month.

I have not edited my entries at all. Any entries that were originally marked private have been made public (with the exception of one that included personal information about people other than myself). Even though the entries are old, you are still welcome to add comments or ask questions. We will be notified of any comments that are left.

Again, I hope that I am in some way able to offer something positive to your life by sharing my personal Going Raw Journal.

Lots of love and peace to all of you,
Wendi
XOXOXO

It's day one of being alone. It's too new to really feel completely alone. I'm sure it will hit me this evening. It's about 3:30 right now and it just feels like a day when my daughter has gone to stay with a friend and my husband is at work. I'm interested in seeing what kinds of things I eat and do while they are away.

I stopped working on the NaNo novel, because I fell behind and had a computer job that took up a weekend (when I could have caught up). It was so much fun last year to do and finish it, but this year since I was behind I knew it wasn't going to be the same kind of fun. I'll do it next year, again. Now I have time to do other things--like getting back into my raw foods learning and exploring even more. It's hard to believe that it's going to be December in a little over a week from now! That leaves me only about five to six weeks to get my plan in place for my January 1st goal of being completely raw for an entire year! I know I'm going to do it, I just think if I have it planned a bit, it will be even easier to accompish.

I've been feeling tired off and on. I was hoping that the iron and B12 supplements would give me overnight energy. I knew that wasn't going to happen, but I hoped for it, anyway. I am definitely more and more energetic, compared to how I was a month ago. I'm just waiting for that you-can't-stop-me energy that I know is waiting for me!

I woke up feeling very hungry, something that doesn't happen very often to me. I ate two Brazil nuts and had a small glass of OJ to take my supplements. After about an hour I made my regular carob coconut shake to which I now always add hemp protein. Then I chatted on the phone with my family and then a friend.

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FEELING:

The time is going by so quickly. I feel like near a black hole, or something, and the time is getting sucked away from me before I get to use it.

I went to bed around 10:30 and woke around 7am to pee. I was too tired, so I crawled back into bed and didn't get up until about 9:15! That's sleeping in for me! I felt uncomfortable last night, because the dinner I made felt like a brick in my stomach. I woke to the same feeling--the food didn't digetst well. I don't know if it's because of all the nuts/seeds, or because of the food combining. It's definitely from the food, though. The "stuffing" recipe said it made enough for 3-4 servings, so I made 1/4 of the recipe. It looked like a lot, and even though I wasn't very hungry I ate it all anyway. That was probably the mistake I made. So much for not stuffing yourself on Thanksgiving if you are a raw foodist (or aspiring to be one). It was yummy, but I'll definitely not eat that much again when I make it another time.

I've been taking a sauna and tub soak every day. It's making my skin feel smoother. It's going to cost me a fortune, but I'm just counting it as a retreat. I haven't felt lonely at all (probably because I get a lot of phone calls during the day). And I'm able to go to sleep without fears, which is a good thing!

I was a bit tired last night, and still feel a tiny bit sleepy this morning. I'm thinking maybe I'll make another of those liver juices today. That sounded gross...as thought I'd be drinking the juice of liver. :-P Anyway, all seems to be going well. I've been doing a sauna and soak every day, and that feels nice.

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THINKING:

They will be home late this evening, thus ending my alone time. :-) It's been nice--much nicer than I even thought it would be.

I feel sick to my stomach, however. I woke off and on all night long, starting at about 2am. I still feel very sick, as though I will vomit. I don't vomit easily, though, so I could be carrying this sick feeling around with me most of today. I'll only juice today, and possibly have a coconut shake to get some protein (hemp) in my diet. Right now I feel like I shouldn't eat anything at all.

Could not chewing the zucchini up very well cause all of this? I had a dream that I vomitted large chunks of lettuce and veggies, as though I hadn't even chewed them. Is this a symptom of detox? I don't think it is. Is it the mixture of the zucchini with flax oil and the coconut shake? Whatever it is from, I don't like feeling sick like this. :-(

We are back together as a family again. It's good to have them home. :-)

The dehydrator arrived, so we'll be unpacking that and getting it to work very soon. I need to make crackers and breads to go with our meals, since that's what my husband and daughter seem to be wanting when we eat all raw. I do admit that I sure do love Amsden's onion bread used as a sandwich--so I'll be making that, for sure!

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