Below, you will find a copy of the journal I kept during my transition into, and my first year of, a 100% raw, vegan diet. Some of it is quite personal, but I still wanted to share it with all of you. We may never meet in person, but I feel we are all connected in this world.I want to share my story with you, in hopes that you may learn something about yourself by reading about my journey into the raw lifestyle. Perhaps you'll be inspired (that's my wish), or learn to not make similar mistakes.

The journal begins in July of 2006 and continues into October 2007. If you are interested in reading something from the beginning, please use the archive feature at the right side of this page. If a month has more than one page worth of entries, there will be a "previous entries" link at the bottom of the page to view the rest of the entries for that month.

I have not edited my entries at all. Any entries that were originally marked private have been made public (with the exception of one that included personal information about people other than myself). Even though the entries are old, you are still welcome to add comments or ask questions. We will be notified of any comments that are left.

Again, I hope that I am in some way able to offer something positive to your life by sharing my personal Going Raw Journal.

Lots of love and peace to all of you,
Wendi
XOXOXO

I'm continuing with my year of 100% raw foods. I haven't hit any walls, or felt deprived in the least bit. For me, it was really great that I did this gradually. It just feels so natural to be raw, now. 

Physically, I am feeling good. I don't have a huge amount of energy like I read other raw foodists experience. I do have more energy, and I am much more focused/present every moment of the day, but I'm not zipping around and feeling like I want to exert myself at all. I suspect this comes from me being low in B12, iron, and having my thyroid being a little sluggish. I still have hopes that raw foods will fix all of this. 

I continue to lose weight very slowly...so slowly it doesn't really show much to those around me. I average about one pound a week. The good thing about this gradual weight loss is that my skin seems to be responding and going back to "normal" without sagging like I had feared would happen. Days when the scale doesn't seem to move, I still notice changes in my shape. Things are shifting, moving, disappearing...and I am looking less and less overweight. 

I keep forgetting to write about this. You know how animals stretch before getting up and moving around? You know how babies do the same thing...stretching and moving all around when they wake up? Well, I've been doing that--*every* morning over the past few weeks. I'm not consciously doing it, I just find myself stretching when I'm waking up. It feels great and in many ways makes me feel healthier for some reason. :-)

What do raw foodists do if they get the stomach flu? The only things I used to eat if I got a stomach virus was dry toast, crackers, and stuff like that. What would I eat if I picked up the stomach virus that is going around !

I took my daughter to the store earlier today because her sneakers are falling apart and she needed a new bra (she's growing up so fast!). While she was in the fitting room, I quickly grabbed two pairs of jeans in different sizes just because I was curious. The style of these jeans are the ones that are snug in the thighs and hang on the hips, rather than coming up all the way. I could *never* get them up over my thighs in the past. I always ended up hurt and feeling like only abnormally thin people could wear clothing like that. Anyway, I tried on the larger size, first. The larger size was two sizes smaller than jeans I work into the store (which require a belt to stay up). They fit(!) and I couldn't believe I could actually slide them up over my thighs. They completely came up over my butt and I was able to zip and button them without a problem. They were even a bit big. So, I figured I'd try the next size down. They fit, too(!) but were a little snug in the thighs. They weren't so tight that people would think or even notice, probably, since many people wear them like that. They just weren't anything I'd ever wear because I don't like tight clothing. 

Anyway, I couldn't believe it. I didn't buy them because I'm just not ready to wear new clothes. I like the comfort of my old ones and how I can still wear them and no one makes many comments. I'm just not comfortable with stuff like that, yet. As the days are going by, I'm getting more and more comfortable with the way my body is change. I like how when I look in the mirror after a shower I can see that things are going back to where they belong. My skin isn't sagging and everything seems to be responding to the natural way I'm eating. Yes, I like that my stomach is looking more "normal" these days. One day I even pulled up my shirt to show a friend how I could suck my belly in. I think it will just take time to get comfortable with this part of getting healthy--the whole body image part. 

Going raw isn't, for me, about looking "normal" or anything image-related. For me it is about being healthy, really and truly feeling alive and whole. I know that a healthy looking body will come with this as a bonus, but it's not the reason I am doing it. Maybe that's why its so easy for me to stick with it? In the past when I've tried to lose weight it was because I was sick of looking/being/feeling fat. This time I just wanted more out of life...I wanted to feel the way I should be feeling as a living, breathing, loving being. I felt on a deep level that raw foods was the way to go, the natural way to live, to attain true health. And, so far (knock on wood) it seems to be working. I'm still not bouncing off the walls with so much energy like many raw foodists claim will happen, but I am slowly gaining more and more energy and most of all a sense of being centered and present. 

What I find fascinating about this raw food adventure is that I am eating whatever raw foods I want, whenever I want, however much of them I want, and the weight continues to just naturally shed away. I have lost a little over 60 pounds, total, so far. Not all of it was lost from eating 100% raw. Probably half of it happened after I was diagnosed with PCOS/IR and I started to pay more attention to eating protein with high carb foods. It just amazes me, however, that I can eat all kinds of raw foods and continue to lose about one pound a week. 

Original Comments

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On February 27, 2007, medamoso wrote:

I tried on two sizes of jeans today. The first was a size 14, the second a size 12. They both fit, but the 12 was a bit snug. The style was the kind that's tight in the thighs and low on the hips. These types of jeans used to make me cry, feel so abnormal that I couldn't even get the largest sizes over my thighs. It felt good to see that I could fit into them.

I weighed myself yesterday and I was 166 pounds. So, that was a bit more than one pound a week (since it's 10 less than the January weigh-in). :-D

I didn't take pics, yet. I really should do that, since I neglected to take them in February.