Below, you will find a copy of the journal I kept during my transition into, and my first year of, a 100% raw, vegan diet. Some of it is quite personal, but I still wanted to share it with all of you. We may never meet in person, but I feel we are all connected in this world.I want to share my story with you, in hopes that you may learn something about yourself by reading about my journey into the raw lifestyle. Perhaps you'll be inspired (that's my wish), or learn to not make similar mistakes.
The journal begins in July of 2006 and continues into October 2007. If you are interested in reading something from the beginning, please use the archive feature at the right side of this page. If a month has more than one page worth of entries, there will be a "previous entries" link at the bottom of the page to view the rest of the entries for that month.
I have not edited my entries at all. Any entries that were originally marked private have been made public (with the exception of one that included personal information about people other than myself). Even though the entries are old, you are still welcome to add comments or ask questions. We will be notified of any comments that are left.
Again, I hope that I am in some way able to offer something positive to your life by sharing my personal Going Raw Journal.
Lots of love and peace to all of you,
I think I might try eating less fats. If I still desire them, however, I'll follow what my body is saying. I don't desire the nuts I eat, I desire the awesome tastes/dishes I make out of them. I rarely see nuts and seeds and want to eat them plain. So, maybe I'll try to find more tasty ways to eat dishes that don't include a lot (or any) nuts and see how I feel.
For now, I am asking myself about my precious baby coconuts. Do I still desire them as I did in the beginning? I don't get that physical happiness as much anymore, but I still certainly love eating them. I'll have to think about that for a while. For now, I'll still pick up the case that I have for this Sunday. I would hate to be without them and realize how much I desire them.
My overeating for those few days put me up two pounds, but they are gone already. However, that puts me behind by two pounds this month. :-/ Oh, well. It's all a learning thing, really. I did learn a lot--that I did, in fact, used to overeat at times to soothe myself. I see now that my body doesn't really desire that if there aren't opiates in the foods to medicate me.
Here's a quick weekend update. I went shopping today and it cost us a whole lot, as usual. We came away with a fridge full of veggies and fruits, nuts and seeds, too.
Anyway, while there I gave my daughter $10 to buy her "junk" for the week. She chose frozen waffles (we usually pay for these), sandwich cookies, jelly beans, wafers, nut ball, and a smoothie. She ended up spending more of her own money for this stuff, too, since it was over $10. These were all healthier versions of junk, but still not overly healthy. I wanted to see what she'd buy for her snacks if she had an allowance set aside for it. I was happy that she first asked, "So, you are still getting lots of fruit for snacks and that isn't counting, right " :-D She'll most likely have these snacks for about two weeks, or more, but we'll see.
So, maybe I have been eating based on my hormones the past week, or so (in addition to stress eating). :-P My period *finally* is here, after about two weeks of trying to start. My shoulder is in extreme pain (seems to come with my period).
* chopped apples with freshly grated cinnamon
I love having my period. Maybe most women don't, but I do. It's probably because my cycles are so irregular and when my period finally starts it feels like I'm "normal" for at least the duration of my period. The best part, however, is knowing that my body is cleansing itself in a way. I feel like each time my period comes, it's a fresh start.
Today's breakfast was yummy. My throat hurts a tiny bit (as it always does after eating strawberries), but it was worth it. :-)
* Strawberries with "cream" (coconut water and meat, few strawberries, two dates, large handful almonds, little agave, vanilla, dash salt)
I had a coconut shake this morning, since I'm out of the house until about 2:00. Those shakes are pretty filling. I brought along a banana and some Brazil nuts, too, in case I get hungry. I'm mostly thirsty, however.
Last night I had a slight headache the entire evening. I still have it today, but it's not very strong. It could be from hormones switching my period off, or it could be a cold that I'm fighting and not showing any symptoms from (husband has sore throat and runny nose, daughter has sore throat). It will be interesting if everyone has a cold and I don't get all of the symptoms.
My dream last night was about eating cooked food. I ate palak paneer, a lot of it, and wanted to take more home with me. Then I realized I had eaten cooked food and I was shocked that I did it and didn't realize what I was doing. I wonder if dehydrating that green thai curry last night cooked it slightly?