Below, you will find a copy of the journal I kept during my transition into, and my first year of, a 100% raw, vegan diet. Some of it is quite personal, but I still wanted to share it with all of you. We may never meet in person, but I feel we are all connected in this world.I want to share my story with you, in hopes that you may learn something about yourself by reading about my journey into the raw lifestyle. Perhaps you'll be inspired (that's my wish), or learn to not make similar mistakes.
The journal begins in July of 2006 and continues into October 2007. If you are interested in reading something from the beginning, please use the archive feature at the right side of this page. If a month has more than one page worth of entries, there will be a "previous entries" link at the bottom of the page to view the rest of the entries for that month.
I have not edited my entries at all. Any entries that were originally marked private have been made public (with the exception of one that included personal information about people other than myself). Even though the entries are old, you are still welcome to add comments or ask questions. We will be notified of any comments that are left.
Again, I hope that I am in some way able to offer something positive to your life by sharing my personal Going Raw Journal.
Lots of love and peace to all of you,
I'm at 159 pounds, now. I gained two pounds in the beginning of April, but then lost those and an additional three pounds. The total is only down three, however, from last month. It's still good. I'm glad to still be slowly losing while I am able to eat whatever I want in whatever quantities.
I've been eating more fruit, feeling drawn to a simpler way of eating. I think this is causing me to detox some, and also giving me cravings.
My menstrual cycles have been lighter (which I don't think is all that great, since I like to know I'm getting rid of stuff). They are still irregular, with me spotting for about one or two weeks before the real period starts. I am just trusting that the healthier I get, the more normal my cycles will become.
I was feeling a bit sluggish this morning. My lower abdomen was heavy and I felt like my food from yesterday was slowing me down. I looked over what I ate yesterday and maybe the shake was too heavy for the time I ate it (later than my normal dinner time). There is a lot of protein and fat in that shake, so maybe it was kind of heavy compared to the fruit. I really think fats and nuts slow my digestion down, but at the same time I feel like I'm not fully ready to give them up. I do like that I'm more aware of how the things I eat make me feel. I feel like I'm at a big learning point, or something, with the raw food eating. I am feeling intellectually drawn to the cleaner foods (particularly fruits) and how they make me feel, but emotionally I am still clinging to the fats and salt. There's no hurry with all of this. I will take my time, eating what I feel I want for whatever the reason may be.
* small bite of a canadew, which I didn't like (yuk! I can't believe I bought that. In the back of my mind I wasn't thinking it was some hybrid, I was thinking it was a melon from Canada. UGH)
It sucks to be low on produce. Yesterday we ate yucky iceburg lettuce from the local store (still organic, but basically just water). We can't make it until Sunday on what we have, or what we can find in the local store, so we have to head to the co op. What sucks about that is that we will go back, again, on Sunday because that's the discount day for memebers. I obviously didn't buy enough stuff the last time we went. :-/
* 1/2 cup leftover coconut shake from yesterday
I still didn't get to the store, but they had some better organic produce at the local store today. I'd really like to just wait until the weekend to do my big shopping.
* romaine salad (celery, lemon, salt, thyme, olive/flax oil, pepitos)
My weak spot has always been my stomach/digestion when I am stressed (well, second to my head, since I get migraines sometimes, too). Lately I've been going through some extremely stressful times and the stress is manifesting in digestion problems and upset stomachs. I am thankful that I am not experiencing headaches along with this. I've made a very difficult decision that will eventually end all of this stress, so I am hopeful that I will be feeling better very soon.
I should have known better than to eat nuts the past few days if my stomach was upset, though. That only makes things worse. I'll try to cut back on that if I'm not feeling like I really want something heavy. It's a delicate balance...eating light to aid digestion and eating in a way that feels soothing emotionally.
My digestion is still not great, so I'm going to have another day of fruit. I love how fruit can give enough energy to go all day long. It will be wonderful if one day I actually crave fruit, rather than complex blends of fats, oils, and herbs/spices.
* Two apples with cinnamon